i can't say i remember the first time a penis entered my vagina...it was such a confused time of fumbling fingers and disheveled clothes, but i do remember the first time i had my ass probed by a finger. this is the vanilla prelude to "the act" that i wrote about in my blog...i drove an ice cream truck that summer...i was about 19

and getting to work became a real pain in the ass, one sunday i took the train into chicago to catch a train out to work (sounds like my commute now) and i just gave up, i was carrying my radio and i decided to take a detour and visit the sears tower. i clearly remember just sitting there looking out at the big city below and noticed all these boys about age 10-16 running around in very funny looking blazers. two of the older boys sat down next to me and started asking me questions. it turned out they were french, belonged to a boys choir and were signing at my mom’s church later that afternoon! talk about bizaare coincidence. i skipped work, went home, recruited my mom to come with me and i got dressed up and listened to a french boys choir. i had kind of a date with one of them…

the date ended up with me and the french boy in my mom's car parked on the side of the road steaming up the windows. i was straddling him as he sat on the passengers side with my skirt hiked up to my waist. lots of fingers and mouths and probing. he slipped his finger in my ass...no mistaking that for anything else! i don't think we ever actually had intercourse, but that feeling has stayed with me for 30 years!